Twenty days into my 40 day Kriya Awakening to the ten bodies, one change is standing out to me. That is my new found ability to be more flexible and I don’t mean bodily, I’m talking about with time, with what I really want to do, in the time I have free, sometimes two things on the same day.
A week before my yoga training I saw that a Kirtan band Kamari and Manvir were playing 20 minutes away from where I’m now living on the same night as I would be driving near London to go to my teacher training. They were playing at another Kundalini teacher training school so I wouldn’t know anybody but I would be there, even listening to a few tunes lit me up.
It wasn’t as if I hadn’t heard them before, they had sung and played the first year I went to the Great British Kundalini Festival though back then I didn’t know who they were. I spoke to Kamari, she was wearing a pink turban and I told her how great their music was and that I liked her pretty earrings, she was as graceful as she had been singing. Since then I listen to them a lot especially their upbeat songs while I’m in the car or getting ready, to see them live seemed like an opportunity not to miss (though they do usually play at New Years too).
So for a week I tried to work out how I could get there and make it to and all the way through a 5am Sadhana the next day. And was it worth the money (£26 for a few songs)? After finally paying the tickets, no going back now! I decided to go then come home then leave at 3.30am to get to my training at 4.30am and be in time for Sadhana, ah lovely. Then during the day I started packing and tidying my room as if I wasn’t coming back for a few days, like I do before my training days, my body was obviously saying something different. Also while living at home, going away for a few days away from family is bliss, I feel more free and independent.
I changed into my ‘yogic underwear’ (such a fabulous name for a white all in one) from Ananda Kanda, heals and earrings, everything matched and everything was packed – I felt wonderful.
Doing something different out of my usual pattern of driving to see other people before training, was like giving a gift to myself. Driving to me being me. It shows a level of commitment to a new plan, getting out of a comfort zone and being laid back that travel plans are different but do able.
I got to the Ufton Court grounds around 7pm and it has to be the first time I’ve ever taken my heels off before the night rather than the end of it. People were laid back, obviously been camping or staying in the big house. No make up, baggy pants and pizza. Yes pizza, I walked in, smiled and sat on a bench near a pizza oven, over dressed and over excited. With no idea if I was getting any pizza.
It’s funny how reserved some people can be, even though they do the same yoga as you, with the same values – recognise the other person is you, to be healthy, happy, holy. Also with the same knowledge that white is worn and it reflects the other person, some people see you as a light, others just stare as if your on their territory.
Maybe it’s a lesson to me also to engage with more people even though the vibes are firmly grounded and not elevated. Maybe in those moments that was my job, to elevate. Anyway some people were darling and came over to small talk, two people offered me pizza – hooray! One non vegan the other raw vegan – millet with lime, saukrought and mushroom, both delicious. Why I make curry before I go to these events I will never know.
I sat and waited, it being a Yogic event it started later but I was able to dance to Jai Maa Durga, Wahe Guru Wahe Jio and Ong Namo Shivaya from Mantra Evolution and a few others from an album Kamari and Manvir are releasing soon in France. I can only assume they mean at the 3ho France festival, I will go to that sometime, next year – France and India are my must dos.
I danced freely and wildly on a patch of grass with other people I didn’t know but were also smiling, some people looked as if they were in total joy, love, acceptance and moved their body so freely and fluidly. I knew I wasn’t there long so just kept taking in the experience, taking some Polaroids and checking my phone for the time.
It got to 8.45 pm and I just had to go, if it didn’t take over an hour to get to my next destination I would have stayed longer, despite feeling odd not knowing anyone there I was also happy as it’s often that way.
I drove out as the sun was setting, I was going from countryside to main roads and the fields with the sun setting looked so stunning I stopped and took a photo. Maybe this was the reason I came, to see this beautiful sunset. I drove on listening to songs from Mantra Evolution before I had even seen if my Polaroid had developed well and got to the motorway, my Satnav saying ‘Continue on the M4 for 28 miles’ the roads almost empty meant I could go at regular speed instead of being stuck behind a queue – ‘Wahooo’ I shouted to myself and had a stress free journey to my destination that I reached in just enough light to not miss the turning.
The next morning I awoke at 4.15, was reunited with friends from the course and got through the 2 and half hour Sadhana (despite the coaco chocolate and mantra music giving me insomnia). I sang along to the beautiful mantras and tabla beats from Chardi Kala Jetha, anything slower would have set me to sleep but the upbeat, cheerfulness and feelings of being in a Gurdwara kept me up!
I walked to the garden area later that morning and sat and journaled.