The frustrations I feel, I surrender and send to Guru Ji, the results are pretty incredible
The thing I find frustrating, though interesting at the same time is that on this journey in Sikhi, everyone has there own take on things that sometimes relate to each other and other times are polar opposite. You ask as question and get one answer then ask it to someone else who says something else and so on. It gets confusing. It’s not as if I’m easily offended (I’ve been called many things so words just kind of float off me) though I can be sensitive and ‘carry things’ all to easily, hence meditation, yoga, making art, swimming and gong baths are a great way to relax, re evaluate and rejuvenate. Sometimes I feel it was easier when I had no friends or Sangat to go over things with, though that ongoing would be lonely, maybe boring and where’s the fun in that. Sometimes it’s the challenges and contrasts that make you aware of so much that does resonate with you, what changes you can bring and what you can do to expand and be authentic.
I’m going through this right now with my Kundalini 3ho name Ajeet and the fact it isn’t from Hukumnama, which in Sikhi is how one get’s their name after they are blessed with Amrit. However it is from SGGS somewhere a massive part of my journey and I really like Ajeet, I feel it suits me and the meaning- one who overcomes obstacles to victory. Isn’t this just another obstacle? Like so many times in life.
So many views, so many comebacks to what I’m saying. No one is wrong or more right. And with other things I’ve done recently, I’m going to give it away to Wahe Guru. Twice in the last two weeks I’ve given my problems away and said – Guru Ji, I’m fed up of thinking about this now, I’m giving it away to you to sort. Each time, the act of surrender has brought forward the very thing I wanted sorted. Literally things that I thought were logically impossible have manifested. Similarly you could say – Let go, let God or leave it to Cosmic Order or Divine law of attraction. Same thing different path, although I will write it from a Sikhi perspective.
Examples of incredible ordinary happenings from surrendering:
- For a few months I was interested in doing Seva one day in December, I kept asking about it, I booked time off and nothing. Since I couldn’t remember how many times I had bugged people (twice was fine, oh what if it was more like thrice or four times, I couldn’t remember). Anyway I had a day off so whatever happened I would enjoy it. Eventually a few days before, having this on my mind while organising what I was doing in my leisure time I just said – Guru Ji! I don’t know if I’m doing seva, I’m fed up of thinking about it, either way I will be happy and have a day off to do something. Sure enough a day before I get a message out of the blue to confirm I was doing seva and the travel information. I did it and it was great and interesting too.
- The whole year I have been thinking of going to Amritsa to visit Harminder Sahib (the Golden Temple in India). I have a mini picture of it on my alter shelves, a beautiful print on my table, on my vision board and written it in my affirmations. In the Summer I was given some money that would allow a holiday there. My holiday allowance renewed. Everything was setting up for the trip. However I didn’t have anyone to go with and the people I discussed going with, couldn’t give me definite yes or dates, which I need to secure time off and so on. I got real honest and messaged one Bhargi discussing it then finishing my message with ‘Guru’s Kirpa I’m going to Amritsa’, then while working it came into my mind, to give it away to Wahe Guru, despite my logical brain saying ‘that won’t work you actually need to do things like book holiday to go’. Anyway I carried on my day then something came to me, I was seeing a Phenji I met at a Sikhi camp, in Birmingham that same weekend and thought I’d message her, ‘Don’t suppose your going to Amritsa next year, I want a buddy’. Sure enough she was planning to go alone and that same week I had all my holiday booked off and made travel plans with her.
That is the true power of giving your worries to Wahe Guru!
It reminds me of a beautiful message my friend wrote in a card for me that I keep at my desk: Why fear when the Guru is always with you.
Now as for other things in life, attracting more people to my weekly Tuesday yoga classes, being blessed with Amrit along with the name issue and finding a future soul mate- Guru Ji…..