Yesterday I did an Artist date of a different kind, I didn’t go out to London to any galleries or workshops of any kind. In fact I spent the whole of Friday wondering what to do and what I could do to possibly avoid spending time with extra members of family. I love my brother but we are very different. Even if I wasn’t a Sikh and he an Atheist I still think there would be a lot of indifference. We disagree, he talks about sex, girls, gambling, peoples weight, all this extra energy feels heavy and I get drained. He is however eating mostly vegetarian so there is a positive change happening. I didn’t want to fall into avoidance, so what to do?
Just go with the flow.
And take photos on your Polaroid and Lumix cameras instead of your phone.
I followed my inner guidance and did just that.
It was a year since I first used a Polaroid camera on the last anniversary of my friend Marcs Birthday, yesterday would have been his 23rd.
I had been thinking to myself how to get out of my comfort zone more and using my Lumix camera was somewhere I didn’t want to start. So I just started. Or as Bill Ekstorm would say from his Ted Talk Life begins at the end of your comfort zone ‘Trigger it yourself’.
There was a perfect moment at the end of the day, I was over joyed I was relaxed enough to watch a film and just write notes instead of painting, I looked up at my window sill, the Sikh Guru’s looking back at me and a red kite flying in the sky.