Yesterday I did an Artist date of a different kind, I didn’t go out to London to any galleries or workshops of any kind. In fact I spent the whole of Friday wondering what to do and what I could do to possibly avoid spending time with extra members of family. I love my brother but we are very different. Even if I wasn’t a Sikh and he an Atheist I still think there would be a lot of indifference. We disagree, he talks about sex, girls, gambling, peoples weight, all this extra energy feels heavy and I get drained. He is however eating mostly vegetarian so there is a positive change happening. I didn’t want to fall into avoidance, so what to do?

Just go with the flow.

And take photos on your Polaroid and Lumix cameras instead of your phone.

I followed my inner guidance and did just that.

It was a year since I first used a Polaroid camera on the last anniversary of my friend Marcs Birthday, yesterday would have been his 23rd.

I had been thinking to myself how to get out of my comfort zone more and using my Lumix camera was somewhere I didn’t want to start. So I just started. Or as Bill Ekstorm would say from his Ted Talk Life begins at the end of your comfort zone ‘Trigger it yourself’.

Made it to early morning meditation at Slough Gurdwara. I am so productive yet chilled on days that I can go.

I napped in my shawls (twice that day) cool in the humid weather were having.

I asked my brother out to a cafe to chat! Jump in through discomfort and show up!

I added more and finished a journal page spread.

I watched film Lady in a Van, a mostly true story. Something I knew about ages ago but it seemed like perfect timing as I’m writing more too and can relate to the main character.

There was a perfect moment at the end of the day, I was over joyed I was relaxed enough to watch a film and just write notes instead of painting, I looked up at my window sill, the Sikh Guru’s looking back at me and a red kite flying in the sky.

Santokh (contentment).